I had this whole blog thought up about graduation and that sort of nostalgic feeling it gives you. But graduating from university has been so different from graduating from high school. When I graduated from High School I felt like I could do anything I wanted to- my whole life was ahead of me. It has only been 6 years since then, but I somehow have this feeling now that I am running out of time. I have a degree now, I'm working in the field that I got my degree in and yet I have realized that it isn't what I want to do. I've decided to work at my job for next year and then I am probably heading back to school. The problem is- to do what? There are so many things I am interested in. I like working with people and I like working with animals. Recently, I have been thinking about Vet school, but I don't have some of the pre-reqs to get in. I have some of the harder ones to get like direct experience working with animals- but I'm missing physics and calculus both of which scare me to death. I'm good at science, but not at math and physics. Other career possibilities have included occupational therapist, nurse or maybe a teacher. Its funny, I always thought that by the time I was this age I'd know what I want, but I don't. I'm just an older, more mature, version of the girl that graduated from high school 6 years ago.
What scares me even more is I seem to be in this unmotivated funk where I don't feel like doing anything. Part of me is kicking myself- telling myself to get off my ass and do something about my life if I don't like it. And the other part of me is the one that always seems to win. My Facebook fortune cookie seems to have some good words of wisdom," Many a false step is made by standing still." That is exactly how I feel right now. I feel like I'm messing up my life by being apathetic, by standing still. I wish I weren't so numb to the kicks that part of me is giving... because one day the numbness will where off, I'm going to feel the bruises from the kicks and that won't be pleasant.
