Sigh- I have not posted here in awhile. Probably because I have not felt the need to rant like I do right now. One thing I was not suspecting is that my program is really clique-y. Wow. For some reason, the girl I am paired with for student teaching and her friend do not like me. Normally I do not care when people do not like me because that is life- sometimes people just do not get along with me and I am cool with that. When one adult does not really like another adult, you still act civil though, especially when you have to work together. I'm wondering if it is something I have done with sharing our mentor teacher? If so, I'd love for her to talk to me, rather than just act cold.
I guess it just pisses me off that she can act so high school. I mean I have had people IN HIGH SCHOOL do what she is doing with me. I know that was a really long time ago for me (and probably was not for her). But in high school at least the person giving me the cold shoulder/ potentially turning other people that were previously civil to me, away from me had good reason to. At least there were fights that I could say- hey I was kind of a bitch so it makes sense that person X is being passive aggressive toward me. Maybe that is just her personality. If so- she has this too cool for school attitude that is really only acceptable when you are in High School.
I really could not care less if she were my friend or not. I mean I'm a good 5 years older than her and I have lots of friends. I even have friends in the program. Some of my friends are her friends so I wish she would suck up whatever grudge she has against me, act civil so that we can work together in peace for the next two weeks. She may not like me, but I really hate her attitude. Not her as a person, because I think if she got past whatever it is she has against me, she's probably like me. I'm going to try and be the bigger person and kill her with kindness. I'll keep to myself, because that seems to be what she wants. Which ultimately means I am going to "hang out" with the other teachers more. Part of me thinks she might be jealous or have trouble sharing. Or maybe it is that I am trying to befriend the teachers... I'm not trying to suck up, but honestly there is no point in staying in "the student teacher" posse, since they cannot give me reference letters. Maybe I am being too eager, but quite honestly, is that not what you are supposed to be when you are trying to impress people?
Sigh- I really should not worry about this until next week...
