Okay... the stress is building but I just have take things one by one. I was freaking out last night... I seem to have one mental breakdown a night... well mental breakdown seems extreme, but I do freak out.

I think Lindsay thought I was crazy for going for a walk at 10:30 with Daley. Well maybe I am crazy, but i needed to get out of the house.

I had the most intense craving for medicated lip stuff. I guess old habits die hard. I could be addicted to other things, much more addictive things and I'm glad that I am not.

I'm supposed to go to a birthday party tonight... I want to go but I feel like I should neglect my school work... ugh. I hate that feeling...

Well I should go... later.